There are moments in life when nothing can explain how you feel or what you’re going through better than a picture…a picture of what God is doing in your life. I saw took this picture a couple months back and couldn’t explain it for quite some time. Looking back that the very same picture, all I see the beauty of God in the midst of the storm. We never initially expect our lives to go through hurricanes and trails however, the longer you live on this earth the more you realize that is a requirement of living, period. I have honestly lost count of the many storms I’ve been through but three have really stuck to my heart.
The first hurricane was over two years ago at camp. That story, that experience is for another time. The second hurricane was during and after my first relationship. Yeah, I’m not talking about that one today either. The last hurricane…is the most recent one, what I’ve recently just gone through. That hurricane is the one that you see above.
When this recent hurricane began to creep into my life, I thought, “oh snap, there is no way that I’m about to use those clichés to make myself feel better.” At the time, I was in a relationship and was praying for God to take control over because…well long story short, it wasn’t the will of God. That was probably my first ‘eh’ moment. That ‘Eh’ moment when you know that the Holy Spirit is talking to you and you’re ridiculous flesh self is like…”eh is that really from the Holy Spirit.” You know what I’m talking about. When you know you’re parents wouldn’t approve of someone or something but you try to dance around that reality and see what you could fix to make it better. Yeah, that’s where I was.
The hurricane came. I knew it was going to come. I just knew! When God is telling you one thing and you’re asking for something that you know is not the will of God, you know that there will be a time when you will have to make a decision. A decision that can jeopardize not just you future but your heart and soul. I took this picture just when I realized that it had came had down to making that decision, the decision that I had been dodging for months: Do I chose Jesus and everything that I had proclaimed I wanted for my life or do I chose my feelings, a man that wasn’t bringing me closer to God, and this temporary happiness? This wasn’t a choice I wanted to make. If anything I wanted to run away and just let whatever happens happen. But God wanted me to chose.
I knew in that moment that no matter what happened, three things were absolute 1) the will of God will always come to pass no matter what I do and 2) the will of God is always for my well being because God will always want what’s best for me and lastly 3) God will provide even when I don’t know what I’m doing and where I’m going. It was just these three truths that really helped me make my decision.
I was scared. I knew of 2 Timothy 1:7, “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind,” but I was scared. I was scared of the unknown like as if I was in a real storm. I was afraid of losing what I had like I was in a real storm. I was scared of the emotional damage that was going to come after the storm like the damages we notice after a hurricane. I was scared because I was having my Jehovah-jireh moment like Abraham. (Genesis 22: 1-19)
I remembered Abraham. Abraham had to make a decision to whether keep the son that he had been praying for since before he left Ur or to obey God. Most of us cannot say that we understand the position in which Abraham was put in when He was at Mount Moriah. To chose what you’ve longed for, which in my case was my relationship and the happiness that I was receiving from it, or to chose God. Abraham choose God. I knew within my heart what the right decision was and I knew if I didn’t make the right decision, the outcome will cause me to have wished that I chose God.
Ultimately you know what I choose as since I’m now writing this to you. The question is: do you now why I’m telling you everything now? Why I spent seven paragraph babbling on God and hurricanes and obedience?
We all have our moments like Abraham throughout our lives. Sometimes we make the right decision and other times…we don’t. I have learned through this hurricane that no matter how hard you pray, how much tithe, how many hours you spend on your devotions, or how holy you may seem…no one can convince God to do what God wouldn’t do. The will of God is exact and wouldn’t change. Heck, I prayed for God to take control and do what He wants before I got into my previous relationship. I asked God to give me an objective heart that would listen to the Lord even if it’s not what my heart desires. Guess what, He did just that!
No matter how long you’ve walked with Jesus, you’ll always know these two things: God will do what God wants to do and the will of God is also about what is best for you in the long run. You may not understand it at the moment and you may never understand it. Though, when you look back at all the no’s you got, you realize that they are nothing compare to all the yes you received from God. When your Jehovah-jireh moment comes to pass, remember that no matter what happens, trusting God and His will is always the right decision.