Posts tagged honest
Don't Waste Your Time: It's an Inside Job

I want to tell you a harsh, honest, time saving, heartache preventing truth that I refused to embrace for years…until now: happiness, fulfillment, and everything that brings you to the best version of yourself is an inside job.

[…]there are way too many people in this world getting jobs, making decisions, getting into relationships, and selecting choices that they are using to fill the unbearable pain that that is caused when true peace, joy, love, and happiness is missing.

I've become very aware (I really wanted to use, but I don't want to be dramatic) of how easy it is to allow yourself to hop from one experience to another in a (for lack of better words) foolish way.

re·bound

/rəˈbound,ˈrēˌbound/

verb

recover in value, amount, or strength after a previous decrease or decline.

You've got to pause on the possible relationships, pray rigorously about that new job, and take that opportunity to the altar before you say yes. And while you do those things, listen attentively (I cannot emphasize this enough) to the Holy Spirit.

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Proper Healing: He's Got You

"There's nothing more powerful for your growth and future than to allow yourself to grow and heal properly in the arms of God."

- Mom

The bond and the relationship that you allow to grow with God is natural, transformative, healing, and altogether more compelling than anything life itself can produce. It is the exact relationship your soul has always yearned for because it is the only way to tap into true peace, joy, and gladness.

No matter what you did, what has been done to you, where you've been, who you've been, and what anyone says about you, your identity and the core of who you are is as visible to the Lord as the very skin you bear. God knows you and has seen everything you consider painful, disgusting, or awful about yourself. Yes, those things in your story that you hide from people; he sees them all. And even after witnessing it all, he chooses to love on you and care for you to the point of not only healing your body but your spirit. If this isn't what love is, then I don't believe love exists.

[…]who are was always inside of you. But until you realize that, you will fail and find no joy wherever you go. By allowing the Holy Spirit to teach me how to praise the Lord in all seasons, I've learned that the essence of who I am (the part that I aim to continue growing into) is found in who he is.

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Slayin' & Slayed

Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him. Even so, I will defend my own ways before Him. He also shall be my salvation, For a hypocrite could not come before Him.

- Job 13: 15 (CSB)

[It is] integrity and faith (not works and actions) [that] pleases the Lord even in the midst of storms.

God doesn't need people to speak for him, he chooses to have his Word and his love vocalized through his servants. He's God, he knows what he's doing better than any of us will ever comprehend. Ask your artist what He's painting on the canvas of your life.

[…]No level of work, sacrifice, holiness, or anything you do will exempt you from being tried in your walk with Christ.

[…]You don't owe people an explanation, and you don't owe people jack when it comes to why you do things the way you do or what God is doing in your life.

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It Not Me...It's the Truth

"you have to be able to look yourself in the mirror and have those tough conversations with yourself […] It may be painful at the moment to realize some of the facts and truths about yourself. But, it's better to learn and face that pain now than two get married, have kids, and then realize the pain you have allowed into your life. Now that is a different kind of pain."

By looking at myself and asking myself questions that made me feel uncomfortable, I have been able to uncover so much about who I am and what I am seeking in life.

I believe that it takes a great deal of courage and strength to look at yourself, have an honest conversation from within, listen to the voice of purity that is inside, and allow yourself to say, do, and act upon what you know to be your truth. It's frightening but exhilarating because no person in this world knows you better than you and Jesus.

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To The One Who Wanted To Give Up

I…have...been...there and it sucks!

I wish I could perform a psychological surgery and remove this depressive mental state away. But...it doesn't work that way.

They have all sacrificed everything for me. Each person I have mentioned has laid down everything in hopes of seeing me and seeing me live this life to the fullest.

It was the reminder that my mother and father sacrificed their comfortable home in Ghana for my education, joy, and success. It was the reminder that my brother, though 9 years younger than me, looks up to me and wants to see me make it in everything I set my mind to. It was the reminder that all the beautiful humans that called me friend valued the genuine smile they initially fell in love with. It was the reminder on the day that she left this earth, the day my grandmother completed her mission, that I recalled that nothing, absolutely nothing, in this world would make her happier than to see me ( broken, hurting, and ratchet in all) living a life that is filled with joy and hope.

I..have...been...there.

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Child, Remember Your Training

Spiritual training is pretty similar to the conditioning I had as an athlete. In order to make your training effective, you must be willing to sacrifice your time and pleasure for the game. This means more prayer, devotionals, fellowshipping, and anything your soul requires for you to do.

As you begin to prioritize your healing process and your self-love, you allow the power of truth, confidence, and joy back into your life. But the truth is meant to share. Confidence is meant to be displayed. Joy is meant to be given away. As you work your spiritual and mental muscles to overcome the mental stage that is hurting you, you begin to acquire new weapons for the battles you may face.

When I felt low, when you felt stuck mentally or spiritually, I began to remove anything and everything that was causing me pain. I had to clear out the virus by applying a vaccination called Jesus.

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