Posts in Self Doubt
I Am Sorry

Healing is one of the hardest journeys I've ever had to go on, and it doesn't stop when the tears end.[…]

I've never exposed myself this much before this season of my life and these past 8 months, and it isn't easy. However, this adventure has been the most humbling and strengthen experience of my life. […]

it wasn't until I had said my goodbyes, driven 5 minutes away from camp, and played the beautiful song one camper dedicated to the experience, that I was able to let myself cry. […]

it is when you stop fighting the storm that you can sit in the eye of the hurricane and make it to the end so that you may witness the beautiful rainbow God has designed.

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Ouch; The Worst Thing I Ever Said to Myself

For the first time in my life, I didn't need to prove my worth by the things I did well or didn't do well. For once, my value was determined by the one that loves me the most instead of the things I could do. Though this sounds beautiful and all, this was a tough pill to swallow (and I'm still taking medicine). To allow one's self to comprehend the negative results of their thought process so that they may be able to not only be aware but transform negativity into positivity is one of the hardest challenges of internal success.

I spent parts of my childhood putting down this beautiful woman, and now, with each day that I am given, I get to build her up in truth. Truth that she is loved beyond all measure. Truth that she doesn't need to worry about being perfect because each day is her opportunity to be perfected in Christ. Truth that all that good in her is precisely who she is and nothing less of that. Each day is my chance to love on Abigail because she's more than enough.

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You Just Got Deleted: Wrestling with God

God wasn't having it with me and these lies any longer. He allowed me to play victim long enough. But he just wasn't having me play the victim when it was time for me to understand the value and power that he had placed in my soul. The Lord wasn't going to let me keep pretending that I couldn't delete what was toxic in my life, the thoughts.

It's interesting how Instagram and Facebook have made it easy for us to delete unnecessary people and toxicity out of our lives. I mean, if you aren't serving my faith and who I am, then you can exit stage left, and it's called the unfollow button. But the irony of it is, we are so quick to delete toxic people yet so slow to erase toxic thoughts! Facebook and Instagram gave you the ability to eliminate toxic people. Jesus gave you the ability to remove spiritually toxic spirits!

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The Misson: You Have Always Been Worth It

You are worth it all. Jesus believes it so much he died in your place. He hadn't physically met you, but he knew what you've been so desperate to validate. You are precious. He said he wanted you, not just some but all of you. Sinful, broken, hurting and all your glory. He believed this so much that he took the bullet for you. He died in your place. He's madly in love with all of who are and guess what? So is his father.

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Loving Yourself Is the Christian Thing to Do

I was scrolling on my Tumblr feed ( yes I still use my, and yes you should create an account just so you can follow me instead of secretly judging me because we both know you want to see what my Tumblr is all about) when I saw this picture (left).

I couldn't just repost this picture. I have to save the image (copyright police already comin' for me; I hear the sirens), print it out, and post it on my mirror. Every time I read this, I think to myself, "wow, how is it convenient to fall in love with another person (being friends or significant others) than it is to fall in love with myself?!"

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