Posts in Mental Health
Change Your Tone: Speak Gently to Yourself

I was upset, to say the least. I decided to trust the knowledge of the backroads and find every avenue possible to get me to my destination on time. Long story short, I was late, and the emotions came flooding. Frustrated, upset, disappointed, hurt, confused, and helpless. All these emotions were spilling out of me so much that after almost a year of not having panic attacks, one came.

Instead of telling myself, "hey Abigail, you did everything you could do to get this errand done properly and on time," I flooded my thoughts with thoughts like, "why is this happening on a day like today?" Thoughts like, "wow, only on a day that I need things to go right," "I should've done this and that," "she's going to be upset with me because I let her down when she needed me," "she's not going to trust me to get this done ever again," and of course, "I've failed her."

When you mess up, when you fall short in any way, picture your parents (or your favorite parent cause we all know some of us are way too side selective). How would they speak to you? How have they talked to you in the past when you mess up? Imagine that kind, understanding, and loving voice. And if your parents don't do that then do the bonus and imagine how God talks to you.

God knows that you're going to fall short before you do. Remember that while Jesus was on the cross he saw all your mess-ups and still said, forgive them. Jesus knew all too well about your shortcomings and sins, and he always chooses to love you. Now you get to love on you. You get to speak kindness and love and hope into your life. And this is especially important in moments when it's hardest to see the best in you.

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You Knew the Truth, You Had to Sit in the Pain

Self-saturation:

when one is able to remove themselves from the events outside of themselves and inwardly look at the positive elements of who they are while using said elements to strengthen and recover from any and all battles they are facing.

I am a firm believer when it comes to inner peace and centering oneself through every experience life gives you. I believe that no matter how long it takes for you to overcome internal battles, you should allow yourself to fully grasp all the lessons that are in front of you and soak in everything God is teaching you.

We must allow ourselves to sit in the presence of our pain, confusion, frustration, uncertainty, and everything that bothers us. We must let ourselves honestly feel what (if you're like me) we are afraid to explore. And in the process of doing so, we must allow God to reveal what we have been too scared to see.

I want you to get a message that took me a while to grasp (and I'm still learning this): The pain, hurt, confusion, frustration, and every not so great feeling you are experiencing will never go away until you are able to face it and let God remold it to reveal the truth that it was meant to be.

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Darling, It's Time to Light It Up!

As believers, we are light and similar to what J.K and Madeleine L'Engle said, the way we are able to escape the darkness and live a life of fulfillment is by turning on our light and being genuine about who we are.

When you are able to determine what success is to you, live it! Don't let anything take your eyes off those goals and the purpose God has given you. If anything distracts you from living your authentic life the way God wants you to, it will bring you down. Trust who made you and who you are.

Stay in connection with your Creator. Embrace the fact that you are stronger than all the darkness life can throw at you. No person or thing can take this light from you. Just turn on your light even in the darkest hour, you will shine! And by being the best unapologetic version of yourself, you will not only overcome this darkness but everything that stands in your way. Trust me, I've been there and darling, believe me when I say you were meant to outshine this darkness!

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The Pain That Became My Superpower

He did what he did to me. He did what he did to my psyche. He did what he did to my emotions. He did what he did to...my body.

[…]Be honest and kind to yourself. No matter who hurt you or what has happened to you, please take care of the experience and gather those lessons. Face your pain head-on. You may be like me, who had to let my family, friends, and counselors in my healing process. It's alright.

Do not (I'm dead serious) be the person who purposefully takes advantage of people emotionally, psychologically, or physically. There is no way this matches up with the Word and will of God.

Don't just be a kind human, be a loving human too. Be a considerate being. Acknowledge others in what you do just as you do for yourself. Don't initially be the reason why someone has pain in their lives. Be the person who builds others up and shows them that they are loved because God deems them worthy of His love.

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It Not Me...It's the Truth

"you have to be able to look yourself in the mirror and have those tough conversations with yourself […] It may be painful at the moment to realize some of the facts and truths about yourself. But, it's better to learn and face that pain now than two get married, have kids, and then realize the pain you have allowed into your life. Now that is a different kind of pain."

By looking at myself and asking myself questions that made me feel uncomfortable, I have been able to uncover so much about who I am and what I am seeking in life.

I believe that it takes a great deal of courage and strength to look at yourself, have an honest conversation from within, listen to the voice of purity that is inside, and allow yourself to say, do, and act upon what you know to be your truth. It's frightening but exhilarating because no person in this world knows you better than you and Jesus.

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To The One Who Wanted To Give Up

I…have...been...there and it sucks!

I wish I could perform a psychological surgery and remove this depressive mental state away. But...it doesn't work that way.

They have all sacrificed everything for me. Each person I have mentioned has laid down everything in hopes of seeing me and seeing me live this life to the fullest.

It was the reminder that my mother and father sacrificed their comfortable home in Ghana for my education, joy, and success. It was the reminder that my brother, though 9 years younger than me, looks up to me and wants to see me make it in everything I set my mind to. It was the reminder that all the beautiful humans that called me friend valued the genuine smile they initially fell in love with. It was the reminder on the day that she left this earth, the day my grandmother completed her mission, that I recalled that nothing, absolutely nothing, in this world would make her happier than to see me ( broken, hurting, and ratchet in all) living a life that is filled with joy and hope.

I..have...been...there.

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