God Doesn’t Owe You Anything


Hey Guys,

How are you guys? I hope everyone is doing spectacular! Oh my goodness, I love you guys, and I cannot thank every person who reaches out to me and reads my posts. You are all amazing. I'm doing this blogging thing for God, my self-love, but having a community has made all the difference. I wanted to begin today's post by thanking you all.

As always, I am moving on.

I recently sat down with a new friend of mine. He loves Jesus, and I love Jesus, and when there is the Jesus thing going on, I'm over here like, "yes, fam! Praise the Lord! Amen."

When we sat down recently, he brought something to my attention regarding his personal life. I'm not going to share it all with you guys because it's his business, not mine; it's not my story to tell. However, we ultimately got on the subject of DEATH.

(Harsh, I'm already starting a blog post about death (dun dun daaa).

We got on the topic about death because not too long ago, someone close to my friend passed away. He explained that due to that person's departure from Earth, that person going home to be with the Lord, those in his family who didn't understand and weren't okay with this happening began to walk away from the Lord. It hit me hard as we were speaking. My friend said that God recently showed up in his family because another member who went through a medical scare had newly been completely healed with no restrictions (praise the Lord). And by experiencing this new healing, my friend's family is now beginning to have hope in the Lord.

Amazingly, God takes us through these seasons with him. Though, what hit me hard is that you all know that my grandmother passed away on December 1, 2018. I love her. Aside from my mother, my grandmother is the best woman I've ever met and had the pleasure of being around throughout my life. Sorry to every woman because grandma takes the cake.

I can relate with my friend on the death part because when you lose someone precious to you, things get real. You realize there's an empty chair now when it comes to all the people in your life. There's no physical person sit there in that seat. I was more upset, to say the least when I was chatting with this friend of mine. It wasn't towards him or his family or even the fact that people die. I wasn't upset in the sense of angry but because I was confused and unable to relate.

You guys know me. I love to relate to people. I enjoy connecting with people emotionally, spiritually, and psychologically. It's who I am, but I wasn't able to in this situation, and this wasn't the first time I've been confused regarding people getting mad at God.

I said, " I don't understand."

He said, "What don't you understand? Why don't you understand?"

I replied, "I don't understand why when crap hits the fan, and people get mad at God. I can't see to comprehend why people get mad at God. I just haven't been able to because I've never had that experience."

I am not saying that people shouldn't be mad at God or get upset with him. That's between each person and Jesus. This is your relationship; I don't dictate, I don't judge. It's not who I am. What I'm stating is that I don't understand. This isn't the first time as I said before. There was another moment when I was confused about a year or two ago because someone I was close to at the moment was mad at God for the way his life was playing out. And while he too was upset and saying all the things he said about God, I sat there conflicted and confused. I wondered, "where do we get off getting mad at God?"

I've been pondering about this concept for some time and asked God to speak to me personally, is it cool, or is it not cool to be mad at the Lord? Do we have the right to be angry at God, or do we not? Why do we get mad at God, and what can we do about it?

I think the question of is it cool, or is it not cool to be mad at God will be saved for the last part of the post. So why do we get angry at God?

It's possible that we get angry at God because the plans we have for our lives don't go accordingly in reality. Life doesn't go from step one, step two, step three. Life has a way of knocking you off your game. You and I cannot plan our lives, even though our parents and society demand us to. You can take the incentive to make goals and put yourself in a position to get the things that you want out of life. Ultimately, life will change. Over time you change, the people in your life will shift, situations will vary. Your way of thinking, perspective, and just about every little thing changes. We don't factor in those variables when we plan out our lives. I believe that this is one of the reasons as to why we get angry with God. We are told that God sees everything and that he been there from the beginning and has seen the end. God is outside of time; he sees all and knows all.

It's as if we almost want God to follow our plan (nope, something we do). We want God to follow our blueprint for our lives like, "hey Lord, here is the life I want, the way I want it, how I want it, and when I want it. Make it happen." It's fascinating when I ponder on this because I thought we got the message before. You don't guide God. God guides you. To follow Christ doesn't work our way. You and I are submitting ourselves to the plan of God and his glorification, not our intentions. We will get glorified through him, but we don't get to tell God, "hey, this is my life. Do it this way, and I will know that you are a great God because you did this my way."

Life doesn't work like that. It never did work like that for anyone in the Bible, and it definitely wouldn't work like that for us. I don't get why we think it'll magically work that way for us in this situation. I'm fascinated. I'm sitting here flabbergasted as I'm typing this. Yes, I'm not perfect, and there have been moments when I've been like, "yo God, that's what I wanted. Why'd you say no." Though, to be mad at God for things not working out my way, I can't wrap my mind around why I'd do that.

I understand that one of the reasons we get mad at God is because we don't understand. We don't know why He's doing things and allowing things to happen the way that they occur. We don't see his angle. We see the end goal ( He shares it throughout Scripture). Though, we don't know every step of the adventure. And I believe that because we don't know and as humans, we want to know everything (Adam and Eve taught us that). This may be why we get upset with God too.

1| We want God to follow our plans, but it should be the other way around. He guides us, not we guide him.

2| We don't have the whole picture, and we get disappointed and retaliate. He said just follow me, I got you. He didn't say, hey before you follow me, I'm going reveal to you everything before you follow me. The Lord said to follow him because he has the best plan for our lives, to trust in him and to lean on him, not our understanding.

Now going onto the third reason:

We don't comprehend the essence of God. (This is me preaching to myself here.) I'm not saying who God is because there's much to who the Lord is and we'll never know everything. I'm speaking about the essence of God: His character. We don't trust Him. (Yes, I'm calling all of us out!) God shows us time after time that he is more trustworthy than any human who's ever lived. We don't understand and believe that He knows what he's doing.

This is where my title came from. God doesn't owe you jack! God doesn't owe you anything. We act privileged with one another and allow it to seep into our spiritual lives (or maybe it's reversed). God doesn't owe you an explanation, a game plan, he, sure enough, doesn't owe you salvation. It was all a choice. The Lord chose to give us salvation, allowing us to be a part of his game plan, and he explains things over time in the ways he will enable us to empower others and glorify him.

Now onto the second part of the questions I initially asked. What do we do when we don't understand what God is doing behind the scenes. I believe it's easy to tell people to trust in the Lord, but you're not the one going through. And after much thought, there isn't a one size fits all advice I can give. The only thing I say is what I've done based on my experience.

I prayed,

"Hey Jesus, I'm hurting right now, and you know it. I'm in pain, and I am confused and frustrated. I don't understand why this happened (or is happening) and it doesn't make sense to me. I am coming to you because I need to ask you to hold me. Hold me through this process. Help me heal in the healthiest way possible. Guide me through this season. Open my eyes to see everything that is going on the way you see it. Allow me to take this hurt and pain to bless someone else and to make your name greater. I know you've got my back and my heart and though it's a tough season, I know you've already showed up because I'm still in my right mind. Thank you for listening to my words and for loving me so. Thank you for answering this prayer in advance. I pray in Jesus' name, amen."

I began praying this when I first lost a loved one, when I lost my camper, and when my grandmother when to be with the Lord. This is the best advice I can give.

Last question I will answer: is it spiritually correct to be mad at God or not?

After processing everything, I don't believe this is an answer I can produce. Similar to what I said in the beginning, I don't think being upset with God is for us to judge because this moment is for the person and God to process. I will say, however, when you do get mad at the Lord, ask yourself why and do a faith check because this is a spiritual warfare that many believers face.

Remember, God doesn't owe you anything, but he will give you everything fruitful for your life. And maybe, just maybe if we understand how undeserving we are of the love, attention, and sacrifice of Christ, we’d value to our Savior more especially in moments when life just doesn’t make sense?

Until next time...

-🌿 Abigail