What They Don't Tell You When You Say Yes
You're in a beautiful dress that cost more than your car. Your hair has been done in such a beautiful way that you didn't even know people could get their hair done in such a way just for an event. All your favorite people are looking at you with eyes that say, “wow she did it!” (Wait, there is that one cousin, you know the one sitting next to your favorite uncle. Yeah, we know she can't wait to talk about how better her celebration will be. But it's cool, today is your day to say yes.) And now you see him. Yes, this being that you have been looking forward to seeing today. This is the man that you are ready to do life with.
What does this sound like? A wedding? Well…it's about my baptism (idk about the cousin part though; that was just me being extra).
Remember how I told you guys that I got baptized at 15 years of age? Well shortly after that, three years to be exact, I started realizing that there were some things I missed in the pre-baptism classes. Or did I?
See, I think there are some things about this whole Jesus journey that the pastors and the church doesn't let us in on all the way. (Hey I like the sound of that! Can I get that copywritten so when someone makes a song out of it, I can say I started it? …wait, I'm pretty sure someone mentioned this before. You know what, I'm just going to keep bouncing with my Jesus journey!) Not saying that they purposefully hide this but I think it could be explained a little bit more.
Here are some things I think we need to harp on more for new believers (and even ancient ones; man am I rude today; Lord forgive my ratchetness (not a word, I know you crazed grammar people) because it's turned up today) :
1| It's about to go down!
Y'all, I'm going into 10 years of this relationship with Christ, and I'm telling you it is like nothing I've ever experienced! For real though. I've never been through heaven and back, and then again like I have with my man. He knows how to live a good life. There have been moments when I look back at all the things we've faced together, and I'm like, “aye, Jesus! Did we just…did we just do that?!” This journey is going to blow your mind when it comes to the level of power and strength you have within you. Oh and the best part? You'll never reach all of it as long as you're on this Earth.
See, when you say yes to Christ, he gives you so much of himself that your physical body can only hold a small fraction of that power. Think of it as you're still riding the bike with the tricycles. When you get to heaven, that's when you get the Benz! (I'd prefer a Range Rover but hey I'm going to take what the Lord gives me!)
2| You will screw up, continuously
Oh, this was a painful lesson for me. I'm a rehabilitating perfectionist. (Is that even a things?!) I will give you these verses and let them sit in your spirit for as long as you live:
But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
- Romans 5:8 (NKJV)
For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. If, then, I do what I will not to do, I agree with the law that it is good. But now, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find. For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice. Now if I do what I will not to do, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me.
The Lord doesn't expect you to get it right, child. I mean, he wants you to start to keep the lessons He'll be teaching you, but I'm telling you, God knows you don't have it together. If you did, Jesus' whole story wouldn't even exist, and you wouldn't have needed this whole baptism thing (see what I did there; bringing it full circle). You will mess up. Repent and get back up (bruh, that's another song title ready to happen. Okay Columbia Records, y' all need to call me cause I'm ready for my record deal!)
3| You will be pruned, toiled, pulled, pushed, stretched, and reconstructed to the max!
“Following Jesus is the easiest thing I've ever done.” - said no one!
I have given up friendships, relationships, job opportunities, and so much more because the Lord said so. (Hold those pitchforks you crazy people cause I'm not putting the Lord under the bus!) I have said no to many things, I can't even begin to list them all of them for y'all because I've lost count (and that's less than 10 years in the making). But boy am I glad I did! Remember, “the fear of not listening to God when he says no is more critical than FOMO.” (Yes, I quoted myself.)
4| You will never be fullyhappy or joyful or at peace enough to be satisfied unless you are linked up.
I think this one speaks for its self but since my brain and words get jumbled up a lot, let me explain myself.
I went through a bloody depression guys because I wasn't in sync with my main man upstairs. I was unhappy and felt like every aspect of my life was nothing but darkness until I said no more! I almost lost this beautiful human being that I am because I wasn't focused on my lover. This whole Jesus journey will transform your heart, soul, and mind to a level that nothing (I mean nothing) will ever satisfy you. (Honestly, I feel sorry for any guy that tries to approach me because if they're not God sent, then they'll be competing with my relationship with Christ!)
I know that there are more pieces of advice and insight I want to give to you as a believer, but after chugging 4 cups of tea and 2 cups of coffee, my brain is all over the place. (I don't even drink coffee anymore; who got me coffee?! Shame on you! Wait…can I get another cup though?)
So until I calm the heck down and figure out who blessed, I mean messed (wink wink) me up with all this coffee, I will chat with you beautiful people later!