Thank You, I Needed That
Ya’ll, I've have been playing “Thank You, Next" by Ariana Grande on replay! I cannot thank her enough for this song!
Okay enough of my craziness, unto the post:
24 years. I have gotten myself into so many unnecessary situations in the 24 short years I've been alive that I have to take a moment and laugh it off before I continue this post.
Some of the decisions I've made could've and should've been avoided, but you know what? I'm so glad I made them!
During the beginning of every year, I like to reflect on the year that I previously had. I have been doing this for probably 5 years now, and I believe that it's the best way to start of the year. Unlike many people, who are making resolutions and going crazy trying to make sure they stick to those goals, I like to dig deep within myself and understand what goals I need to pray on, why I need those goals, and how I'm going to work towards achieving those goals consistently.
As I was looking at some of the 2019 goals I had set before God, I noticed that there was a distinct theme: embrace everything that is beneficial for me. (I know I know, it's not the Christian thing to do by talking about myself, but this may just be a lesson you need or could help me with.)
One goal I have is explicitly to become more of the Abigail God wants me to be instead of just creating a new me. Instead of pursuing a year that would require for me to change so much of who I am and what I went through the previous year, I want to continue my story by using the lessons (the painful experiences) that I had from 2018.
As you may already know, I lost a precious person in my life last year plus released some not so healthy relationships. I had allowed to linger longer than they necessarily needed to. I could sit here and tell you all about how I went to sleep some nights crying because I knew that God didn't want me to keep the toxicity due to the relationships that were in my life, but that's not what this post is about. Today, we're talking about why I needed these experiences.
I love the book of Job. Job went through way more than I did last year and that guy still said, “nah bruh, I want me some of God!” (Excuse me for my lingo) I think that's why many believers admire Job so much. Through afflictions and loses, Job remained focused on the faithfulness of God. When reading about the experiences and the story of one of the most afflicted man in the Bible (aside from Jesus), I began to realize that going through unpleasant situations and dealing with necessary afflictions comes with the journey.
'Be quiet, and I will speak. Let whatever comes happen to me. I will put myself at risk and take my life in my own hands. Even if he kills me, I will hope in him. I will still defend my ways before him. Yes, this will result in my deliverance, for no godless person can appear before him. Pay close attention to my words; let my declaration ring in your ears. Now then, I have prepared my case; I know that I am right. Can anyone indict me? If so, I will be silent and die. Only grant these two things to me, God, so that I will not have to hide from your presence: remove your hand from me, and do not let your terror frighten me. '
'There is hope for a tree: If it is cut down, it will sprout again, and its shoots will not die. '
- Job 14:7
I needed to go through the pain. I needed to go through the hurt. I needed to go through the rejections. I needed to go through the disappointments. I needed to face everything that happened last year. I needed to go through 2018 to make my 2019 effective.
'No discipline seems enjoyable at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it. Therefore, strengthen your tired hands and weakened knees, and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be dislocated but healed instead. '
I don’t know what God is going to do with everything that happened but I know that because he is greatest artist of all time, He will use it for his glory (that’s more than enough for me).
No pain or hurtful experience is enjoyable at the time just like the writer of Hebrews says. Just like children, we don't like to be put in time out when we mess up. We don't want to be grounded or corrected when we do wrong but…we need to. We need to make the necessary mistakes so that we can understand who we are, who's we are, and more of the journey that we embarked upon when we said yes to Christ. (first 2019 lesson 😁😆)
So to the pain, hurt, rejections, tears, disappointments, and lessons of 2018: thank you, next! Cue Ariana Grande!
Until next time…