Love, You Were Born With It

©AbigailBadu

I find it quite ironic and pretty funny how we all like to quote the saying “you travel to find yourself.” Maybe that is because I disagree.

Oh calm down, don't get salty, I love to travel as much as the next person, but I still disagree. I don't think that you do anything to find yourself but that in fact, you already know who you are. I believe that you must allow yourself to dig so deep into your soul that you have no choice but to face yourself.

As I've been continuing my self-care journey, I've come to learn so much about who I am in ways that…well, I can't help but geek out about. One of the fantastic things I've recently discovered is that I have nothing but love left inside of me. I know I'm already confusing but keep up with, I'm going to make sense of all this.

See, I always struggled to understand why I wouldn't ever result to yelling, screaming, or anything that involved being staying bitter towards others. At first, I thought, “oh that's just the right thing to do.” Even though I tend to not retaliating based on how a situation or conflict came about, I've come to realize that it's not just that simple. No, it's a little deeper than that.

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I then thought that maybe it was because by not acting on my emotions, I would be pleasing God. But I don't think that the digging should stop there. Nah, I've come to realize that it's because I have nothing left but love inside of me.

It's almost as if I've run the race for as long as I could and all that is left is love. But why is that? It's not really because I'm perfect being (Y'all let's refer to Romans 5:8 before we start thinking we're “good people”) but because who I am was forged by God.

Are you confused yet? Okay let me explain it a little differently:

'Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new. '

II Corinthians 5:17

'“You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven; for He makes His sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. For if you love those who love you, what reward have you? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet your brethren only, what do you do more than others? Do not even the tax collectors do so? Therefore you shall be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect.'

Matthew 5:43-48

'Let love be without hypocrisy. Abhor what is evil. Cling to what is good. Be kindly affectionate to one another with brotherly love, in honor giving preference to one another; not lagging in diligence, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord; rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing steadfastly in prayer; distributing to the needs of the saints, given to hospitality. Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who weep. Be of the same mind toward one another. Do not set your mind on high things, but associate with the humble. Do not be wise in your own opinion. Repay no one evil for evil. Have regard for good things in the sight of all men. If it is possible, as much as depends on you, live peaceably with all men. Beloved, do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, “Vengeance is Mine, I will repay,” says the Lord. Therefore “If your enemy is hungry, feed him; If he is thirsty, give him a drink; For in so doing you will heap coals of fire on his head.”'

Romans 12:9-20

God created the core of who we are. Everything that makes us well...us is because God placed all that in us. So when we face trials, when we feel hurt, when we get upset, and we feel like we are at our ends, there's honestly nothing left but love. But it shouldn't be that way. No, we should love first and continue to do no matter what. Since we are flawed, we are continually being placed in situations that cause us to realize who we are so that we may be perfected in Jesus. See this is why I don't think you always need to go somewhere to find yourself. All that you are is in Christ. He is the core of who you are. (But I'm not going to stop you from blessing me with a trip to Greece.)

As believers, we are reborn through the blood of Christ. Who we used to be is no longer our foundation but that Christ is our foundation. Our identity is found in him. Our substance is all Christ. Nothing more. That's why as a believer (at least this is how I feel so I may just speaking about myself here), I detest (wow such a strong feeling) having any conflict with my brothers and sisters in Christ and those who aren't believers. It bothers me.

I cannot seem to dislike nor hate a person, and I cannot say that it's all my doing. Instead, the inability to show hatred or even feel anger enough to act upon it is because of Christ. (Guaranteed, I slip up here and there so don't start judging me.)

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All that I am is love because Christ is love. All that I have is love because Jesus is all I've got. All that I know and can feel is love because Spirit of God that dwells in all of us is all we've known and feel. So next time when you want to act a type of way or give your two cents (no one really needs those cents anyways, it's not like it's got all that value) remember who you are and whos you are.

You and I were never created to be hurtful towards one another. No, God created us to love each other, love ourselves, and love him. Love is the essence of who we are. You don't need to change that much about yourself to know that you are nothing but love and that's all you got.

...now with all this said, don't come after me because I'm still being delivered from myself But you better go and walk in all that love Christ has given you!

Until next time...

-🌿 Abigail