Am I Less Of A Christian?


Sometimes when I sit down to write a new post, I come up blank for hours, days, even months. In fact, I gave up on my blog last year because the writer's block struggle was real. But then...there are times like this moment. At this very moment as I'm writing this to you, I know that God is telling me to write exactly what this post is titled but where do I begin? 

I don't think that I'm the only believer that has ever wondered if they were less of a Christian because ____(fill in the blank). When I was younger it was because I didn't look like other girls who got boyfriends. In High school I devalued my Christianity because I didn't have the social life that my peers had. College...oh gosh just read my other post right here 📝. Recently it was my emotions and thinking. 

Whether you're just accepting Christ or have been walking this journey for some time, I think we can all agree that what goes on within us a large part of our adventure with Jesus. And if you're anything like me, you beat yourself down about it ALL THE TIME! I know I'm not supposed to. I know I'm human. I know that I need to give it God. But if the negative self thinking and mental battles continue, am then less of a Christian? 

I didn't want to say, "no," to that questions because I want to feel better about myself and I definitely didn't want to say "yes," because there goes another pity party for yours truly. 

So what did I do...look into the word of God. As I was flipping through my Bible a couple verses stood out to me and up to this date, when the question of whether I am less of a Christian begins to creep into my mind, I refer to these weapons to overcome my own self doubt. 

I will leave you with these two things: 

  1. You are not less of a Christian because of self doubt, low self esteem, anxiety, depression, or any mental battles you have face, are facing, or will be facing! You, however have the ability to over come these battles with your first love, JESUS, just as you have the ability to wallow in this battle and be overcome by you internal struggle.
  2. This one is redundant however I must say, YOU WEREN'T SAVED ON YOUR MERITS! YOU WEREN'T SAVED BECAUSE YOU WERE A BETTER CHRISTIAN AT SOME POINT! There is actually no such thing as a good or a bad Christian but that topic is for another day. You and I are saved through grace by faith. God's faith, God's grace! 

Check out the readings that I've been using to help me overcome my "Am I less of Christian" moments 👇. 

Do you have Scriptures God arms you with when the self doubt begins to creep in? Or a quote you use when you wonder if your doubts are making you less of a Christian? I want to know! Drop a comment below!

- 🌿 Abigail

Deuteronomy 32: 8

"The Lord is the one who will go before you He will with you; he will not leave you or abandon you."

Isaiah 43:1

"Now this is what the LORD says - the one who created you, Jacob, and the one who formed you, Israel - "Don't not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; you are mine."

Psalm 9:9-10

"The Lord is a refuge for the persecuted, a refuge in times of trouble. Those who know your name trust in you because you have not abandoned those who seek you, LORD."