Who's Life Is It Anyway?

©AbigailBadu

It's ridiculously surprising to me that no matter how long a person has been following Christ, there is always something new to learn. It's as if you sign up for a lifetime of consistent learning and growth. It's not easy, and it takes a lot Jesus to make this journey work but wow, just how amazing is that you're always going to be going through a season of learning?

I'm a particular person who enjoys learning. I actually get excited to see what God is going to be teaching me in each season even if it's a tough season. It may be because with each season and each lesson I realize that I'm growing in the woman God has always destined for me to be. I'm growing closer to Christ by allowing God to keep teaching me. Recently God has been working with me to understanding more about what is mine. Now I know it sounds weird (I'm still trying to understand how I got into this spiritual classroom with Jesus, but hey at least I'm enrolled) but it really makes sense to me that as a Child of the Most High. We owe it to ourselves to understand more and more about what is ours in the name of Christ.

'By this we know love, because He laid down His life for us. And we also ought to lay down our lives for the brethren. We know that we have passed from death to life, because we love the brethren. He who does not love his brother abides in death. Whoever hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life abiding in him. Do not marvel, my brethren, if the world hates you. '

- I John 3:13-16

From self-love to worth, I've dabbled here and there with my opinions based on what God has told me. But recently God has been talking to me about the essence of my life. Hence the title. I don't know if you're like me and you struggle to find common ground on the subject of who runs your life. (If you don't struggle with this, please teach me your ways because your girl needs to know!)

I was listening to a podcast from CityChurch (thank you Judah Smith🙌🏾) about 1 John 3:16 and I couldn't help but be drawn to what was said. Judah Smith mentioned that in this world we tend to say“this is my life,“ and “I am the boss of my life.” This is such a famous saying that I can't begin to describe to you how irritated I get when I find myself saying it. I know I get annoyed (shocker😱). May it's because of with Pastor Smith follows with, as a Christian we don't get to say that anymore. We don't get to say this is my life.

It's a harsh truth but a necessary one. We (myself highly included) love to dictate our lives. We like to be the one driving the car, and we love to make sure everyone else around knows that. It's part ownership and part pride. But as I was listening to this podcast, I thought to myself, ”

My exact face when I realized that I get to live this awesome life for my Savior! Excuse me while I hug a random tree🤣

My exact face when I realized that I get to live this awesome life for my Savior! Excuse me while I hug a random tree🤣

It's a harsh truth but a necessary one. We (myself highly included) love to dictate our lives. We like to be the one driving the car, and we love to make sure everyone else around knows that. It's part ownership and part pride. But as I was listening to this podcast, I thought to myself, “if it was judgment day and God was assessing my life (the life I so claim by these ridiculous sayings) would I want to take ownership for some of the things I've done and said? Would I want to take on the consequences of all the things I have done that sinned against God?”

You know the answer, no. There is no way I can! I mean have yall read revelation? I'm not about that hell life (aw snap, I said the word we're not supposed to, oh well🤷🏾‍♀️)! So here's my question to myself and to you, why are we so quick to claim something that we are not willing to take full responsibility for? Why are we set on insisting that this is our life when it really comes down to it we want God to fix it and make it better?

Don't get me wrong, Jesus died for our sins, and he is our Savior through God. But is it really our life to pridefully claim? The man died on the cross years ago for our sins even though he was blameless yet we don't want to live for him and only for ourselves? This is a tough pill to swallow.

'I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me. I do not set aside the grace of God; for if righteousness comes through the law, then Christ died in vain.”'

- Galatians 2:20-21

Thinking about these questions changed my perspective. I've begun to understand (still learning here so I know I'm to have to keep working on this) that this isn't my life anymore. I don't get to say what everyone else in the world says. No! I have to make sure that when I live, I live for Christ. No, I don't mean just being a good person because we're expected to as believers but taking it up a notch. When I speak, I speak for Christ. When I help, I help for Christ. When I do anything, I do it for Christ.

Think of it this way, if someone gave up their life willingly for yours, don't you believe that you may owe it to them to live the best life you can possibly live for that person? If you agree with this then why wouldn't you do that for Christ? See why I said it's a hard pill to swallow?

Next time you are quick to place boundaries around your life and who gets to be in charge of it, remember that as a follower of Christ, it's no longer yours. You live, you live for Christ. You speak, you speak for Christ. You love, you love for Christ. You do anything, you do it for Christ.

I know I'm harsh, but this is a lesson I'm learning too. My question to you is the same I will continue to ask myself, “who’s life is it anyway? Who am I living for? Myself or Christ?”

Until next time...

-🌿 Abigail