Gracefully Broken

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Since I typically begin with a quote, here you go:  

It is doubtful whether God can bless a man greatly until He has hurt him deeply.

A.W. Tozer

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If you're anything like me, you tend to be highly forgetful. Sometimes I forget the very thing I weak up aiming to complete that day. It's pretty awful guys! Those who know me that I am truly a forgetful person. Growing up and being forgetful, my mother always got nervous whenever I went into the kitchen to cook. She would always say, "Abigail you must stay in the kitchen so you don't forget to turn the stove off." She wasn't playing either. If I stepped out of the kitchen she would purposefully come to find me and tell me to return. 

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But there was only one time in which my mom wouldn't remind me to get back in the kitchen. When I was making tea. Now if you make tea as I do, you use a teapot and you probably user honey and 2 different tea packets. Well, I would set up my teacup, fill up my pot and place it on the stove. Sadly with my forgetful self, I would yet again walk away and forget that I was even making tea. However, my mom wouldn't find me to bring me back to the kitchen, no tea was the one thing she actually trusted me to remember. And guess what? I would. We all know when the water in the pot has boiled for long, due to the high heat and pressure inside, the teapot begins to make a noise that you can hear from always on the other side of the house. Whenever I forgot that I was making tea in the kitchen instead of coming to get me, my mom would wait till the teapot called my name. Whenever I forgot what I was doing, the teapot would call my name. Whenever I forget what I'm doing, God has always called my name. 

I had to tell you about this because recently I’ve been blasting Gracefully Broken by Matt Redman (ft. Tasha Cobbs) and until yesterday, I hadn’t realized why this song had been becoming one of my favorite songs. If you haven't listened to this song, please listen to the two versions that are posted below.

God has been using this song to remind me what I’m supposed to be doing in the kitchen called life. To be gracefully broken is the essence of being a child of God. Choosing to follow Jesus isn’t perfectly peaceful and following Christ doesn’t make your life painless. In fact, the large chunk of following Jesus is being broken over and over and over and over and over again! It doesn’t stop just because you said yes to God. No! It means that you are entrusting the one that sacrificed his life for you to be the very one that breaks you. It’s weird. Being a believer is anything but normal. That’s why it doesn’t make sense to the world. That’s why it doesn’t make sense to your flesh.

We are all forgetful. We forget that this journey we chose to go on with Christ is one that will continuously break us! We forget that we are constantly facing storms and we are being molded by the Creator of the universe. Being broken by Christ is the best thing I have ever experienced in my life. I’m on a life journey with the one I love the most. I’m on a journey that will transcend time. He breaks me every season. He rips parts of who I am so I can become the best versions of who I am for him and his glorification. This reminds of pottery.

Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him. Even so, I will defend my own ways before Him.' 

Job 13:15

Pottery is one of my favorite forms of art. You get a slab of clay on a wheel. The wheel keeps moving by the artist’s constant pedaling. The artist uses water to smooth out the edges and the interior of the clay. The artist pushes and pulls different aspects of the clay. This slab of clay that means nothing to anyone except the artist is all that matters when it comes to pottery. The artist continues to mold and tear pieces of the clay as he is transfiguring it into his masterpiece. He tears here and there but he doesn’t tear too much because then there nothing left of the clay. Instead, he tears and rejoins pieces in different areas to enhance the beauty of the clay. If this is not pure artistry and beauty…I don’t know what is. This is what God does when he is gracefully breaking you and me!

He tearing areas of who we are that are not placed in the proper areas. He is taking parts of who we are that doesn’t help us to show the world and ourselves how truly beautiful we are. But instead of just leaving us with minuscule pieces he rejoins those parts of who we were that weren't originally good for us and instead uses those pieces to empower and enhance who we are.

'And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. '

II Corinthians 12:9

Being a believer, choosing Jesus, means choosing to be that slab of clay for the artist to work on. We…no, you and I, are choosing to be gracefully broken. We cannot forget that. When crap hits the fan, when life knocks us down on our knees, when it seems that we are alone walking in the darkness, we must remember to turn on the light and realize that we are not alone. That pain we are experiencing in times of trial is because we are being gracefully broken!

The song has a bridge that says:

Your power and work in me
I'm broken gracefully
I'm strong when I am weak
I will be free,

—Matt Redman [feat. Tasha Cobbs Leonard] | Gracefully Broken 

We as humans aren’t strong enough to handle everything life throws at us because we don’t know how. We crumble by the emotional and mental requirements life asks of us. That’s why we have Jesus! That’s why He breaks you and I. He has to allow us to feel the weight that he carries for us daily by gracefully breaking us. We are only strong by being broken. Think about it, there is nothing in this world you and I have achieved without so sacrifice being made. That is what Jesus on the cross years ago! He knew that in order for us to be spiritually promoted, He had to be physically broken. So it only makes sense for us, while we’re on this earth, to be broken emotionally, mentally, and spiritually so that we may be able to strengthen those areas of who we are.

Not many know but, the areas that a potter tears and remolds are the what strengthens that clay once it is placed in the kiln. The potter has to ensure that those pieces are attached so well that it cannot be broken when the clay enters the fire. The pieces of who we are that God gracefully breaks are the parts that we are strongest in. Truly, we are strong when we are weak! Don’t forget this because the teapot will continue to call your name back into the kitchen of life.

I pray that God reminds you and I each day how blessed we are to have Jesus who is constantly and gracefully breaking us so that we can become the very best version of who we are. May God continue this journey with us and never forsake us. May the Lord keep teaching us to embrace our lessons and our struggles so that we can not just be blessed but bless one another. May Jesus continue to remind us that to be gracefully broken is the essence of who we are and that He was the first to be gracefully broken in this journey. In Jesus’ name, Amen!

Until next time…

- 🌿 Abigail